Fear, Anxiety, and the rest of the gang

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My friends, the date is SET!

Mark your calendars for Friday, April 5!

In just under three weeks, my ACL will finally be reconstructed!!

I know... I sound really excited.  And, in a way, I am.  I'm glad to finally have the date set and be able to start moving forward.

I'm glad that the interminable wait for scheduling is finally over.

But now the fear and anxiety are really starting to set in.

Yep. I went there.  So ready for this movie.


Nerves about what happens before, during, and after the actual surgery.

But the two things I'm most nervous about are the IV stick and the post-op recovery.  

My terror of needles is well documented.  (Tiny veins being blown every time you get stuck can do that to a person!)  And it sounds like I won't get anything for the anxiety ahead of time.  So, I'm working on what I can do to help myself stay calm and keep my stress at manageable levels.  I've got a selection of oils, meditations, and breathing exercises to help.

As for post-op recovery, it's a LONG process and the unknown is just as scary as the pain.  I know that the more planning I can do now, the easier the recovery will be.

I've got a list going of the things I'm going to have to do, to buy, and to get ready for my post-op life.

Any recommendations are greatly appreciated.


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